Letting Go

Everything doesn't go as I expected.
Not expecting anything was the answer to my problems.
It will make you unhappy if you expect things.
Things will go as they go.
People will come back if they were supposed to.
You will take them back if it's right.

I've moved on from my difficult self a little bit.
Being less sensitive about things.
Because I  made things too complicated that way.
Although it's the way I am wired and I will still use it.
If it's the right time for it.

The stars are with me this time.
I feel it.
I'm letting myself go.

Wait

I've learned bad luck gets compromised.
If you keep going.
Don't be like everybody else.
Be alone for a while.
Reading thought me there are worse things than being alone.
There is a lot of together unhappiness out there.
Wait, because good things come to those.
Who wait in the right way.

Let Them Run

All this pain, what is it all worth?
I'm lost in this world, wandering.
Where the tenderness and sensitivity made place for materialism and plain fucking.
That's how it seems to me.

I stand alone, for long now.
I spend only a year not feeling alone out of the ten years that are behind me.
Sometimes I cry till the feeling is gone again.
I see people live without somebody caring for them.
They are craving only their sexual desires.

Nobody cares or has time.
Couples pass me in the street and they don't see it.
When will the feeling of being alone stop?
I'm trying without much result.
So the tears still fall without anyone catching them so I let them run.

Protection

Alone, like usual.
Wondering why there are not many people close to me in my life.
The ones that are there I'm very grateful for, even the ones that left.
In my everyday life being in a position to get to know somebody is rare.
I don't expect anything anymore.
What I will get I'm grateful for.
That's how I live now to keep myself sane.
Because life without love is like a room without a roof.
It's acceptable but when the rain comes there is not much protection for my soul.