Depression

I was depressed for a week.
I didn't feel anything.
No pain, no joy, no excitement....nothing.
I was standing under the shower wondering why I couldn't get it up.
Never it was so empty in my head without even a shade of emotion.
I tried to hide it but finally said to my girl that I felt depressed.
She couldn't bear to see me like that.
I couldn't bear seeing her trying to make me happy knowing she couldn't.
I faked being happy for the rest of the week knowing she felt the emptiness inside of me.

Earth

The world keeps revolving around me but she doesn't consider me.
But I consider her in every step I take.
She takes hold of me when I can't move.
She catches my tears when they fall.
She shows me light when I need it.
No thing I can depend on, as I can on her.

Suprise relief

I crashed.
Fell harder then suspected.
A cruciating pain I never felt before took over me.
I though, I only can be lucky now.
It feels like a relief to know this.

Lost

I tried it all.
I feel like i'm the only lost soul.
Everybody around me has find somebody but I,
I am unlucky still and I feel lost.
So lost, it feels like I will never find the way back to shared happiness again.

Angel

She asked me: "How long have you lived in silence? Months, years probably?"
I was alone for years, no friends.
All I did was smoke weed and feel sorry for myself.
She brought me out of that and taught me the secrets of life and love.
She was an angel.
But even an angel can turn your life into hell one day.

So little

Reading a passage of love makes me think of you.
U made me see how beautifull life can be when two souls become one.

Am I doomed or blessed to have had so little of something so great?

Apologize

For her it was easy to find new love.
I'm left behind alone and it hurts.
I never felt so much hurt before.
I never felt so alone.
She left me with already someone else on her mind.
How could she have done that to me?
Was it my own fault?
I only hurt her more after she left and I feel ashamed of it.
It's hard to forgive myself.
When we talk, it all happens again and we end up hurting each other.
It's hard to handle my own mistakes.
It's harder to handle hers because she never admits to them.
She never apologizes.
I do, but I keep falling in the same traps over and over again making my apologizes seem worthless.