Apologize

For her it was easy to find new love.
I'm left behind alone and it hurts.
I never felt so much hurt before.
I never felt so alone.
She left me with already someone else on her mind.
How could she have done that to me?
Was it my own fault?
I only hurt her more after she left and I feel ashamed of it.
It's hard to forgive myself.
When we talk, it all happens again and we end up hurting each other.
It's hard to handle my own mistakes.
It's harder to handle hers because she never admits to them.
She never apologizes.
I do, but I keep falling in the same traps over and over again making my apologizes seem worthless.