Yesterday

I have to write this.

I'll do everything in my power to be good.
To not be selfish or narcissistic or arrogant.
But how can I not be arrogant if I want to be myself and be confident?
I'm too honest, I'm too fake, I'm trying too hard, I'm doing too little.
There is no way to be perfect.
There is no way to be what people want me to be.
I'm almost going back to the darkness just to prevent these feelings in me.
I will never find out what I need to do.
But fuck that, I don't need to do anything.
After all, mistakes made me wiser.
Still, I'm lost in all this and in what the world seems to be.

But why did I think I found it yesterday?